Sometimes or even more lately I’ve no idea what I’m doing here. It feels as if I would not belong here. In this system or world in total? I crave beauty, wellbeing, joy, passion, lust and deep intimacy. Going with the flow and be part of creation. I’ve become such a lust stroller so that I can’t stand doing anything that feels stiff and static anymore. Like sitting and learning for example. As long as there’s somebody standing in front of me and kind of motivating me it still works, but other then that I’ve become pretty lazy. Sometimes it’s just enough for me to exist. To breathe, to feel my body. To soak in sun and fresh air. Being in nature. Not thinking of the next thing to happen. No thought, no mind.
